It's well over two years now since we moved to France. Thankfully we've just had our visas renewed for another year. Am I feeling any better another year on? Not really.
Much of the problem is down to the year I've had. It's not been the best of years for quite a number of reasons. The shit year has meant that because of outside forces I've either not been able to concentrate or spend enough time on learning French. Not having a reasonable command of the language causes me a great deal of anxiety and stress. If I'm honest I don't enjoy the process of learning languages. They are illogical and as a consequence my brain just can't cope at times. It is a painful process.
Don't get me wrong, I like where I live. It's a nice place and the climate is very agreeable. The standard of living is very good too. It is this overwhelming feeling of being totally out of control that I find so difficult.
Hopefully time will change things but it's a very slow process.
